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Letting those caged words sing

This singing voice that cracks the circular silence of circumspection shares more than it would ever care to reveal, giving presence and substance to those things it can never quite conceal.

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I sing out loud sometimes to stave off the solitude of mere reflection. The odd time I find myself in an exalted communion, even when I am just singing to myself. How good my song will sound to others, in time, only they can tell. That’s audiences for you.

Writing, for me, is like singing, and writing to be read like singing to an audience; writing out loud, if you will.

As I write, the only audible sound is the rapid tapping of digits on a keyboard, pressing home my frantic words letter by letter. But that’s not what I “hear”.

Sometimes my singing is flat and dull and ponderous, and my fists curl and my nails dig into my palms as I reach for notes that aren’t there. But still I sing.

Once in a very blue moon, my voice sweetly soars to heaven’s highest vaults and I am no longer singing, I am communicating. The heavens answer, my words are read, they mean something to somebody, and all is good. I’ve got rhythm! And I’ve got feedback!

But mostly, I just sing.

As I write, I occasionally experience a feeling of being both receiver and transmitter.

Time is no longer a tyranny as I work away, voice and fingers in seamless synchronicity as they fire out letters on to my computer screen that swiftly coalesce into words; hurtling words that breathlessly break off into sentences, paragraphs and stories.

All the editing and refinement can come later, when I will work the ore that has come from the depths beneath my own surface. I will claw away the cloying sediment and chisel and chip, and chip and chisel, hoping there is something I can eventually polish and hold up to the harsh light of the other’s scrutiny. And try to make it look effortless.

This singing voice that breaks the circular silence of normal circumspection shares more than it would ever care to reveal, giving presence and substance to those things it can never quite conceal.

Singing out loud, I often feel charged with the pulsating passion of just being. Until I stop to think about it.

Letting those caged words sing, my unshackled spirit is given a voice that reaches far beyond my scripted words. However elegant these enunciations and elucidations, they are representations; mere words; the singing transforms them, gives them body and, yes, soul.

The voice in my head does not seek to shape those experiences it both articulates and distorts. Without meaning to, because it does not mean to provide meaning.

This unreliable narrator guards me from the darker reaches of my own interior landscape, as we glide through the well-visited yet uncharted caverns of experience. Words old and new flutter like autumn leaves to the ground all around me, subsumed into the febrile forest of reverie and reincarnation, of remembrance and regret.

Beneath the surface layer of words lie the primordial precursors of language and expressible thought, sensations barely recalled but never forgotten. And felt always.

But the voice that takes the stage tries to draw meaning and emotion from these labyrinthine depths. And reconnect to the centrality of what it is to be alive and part of something. To prove to myself and others I am not alone.

To think that out of all this can come a song. Unique to me and yet, if it is a good song, magically universal. And me the singer to sing it, if I can only let my voice go free.

So, fellow singers, what can we do, but keep on singing.

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11 comments on “Letting those caged words sing

  1. Do you improvise or are these ‘songs of old’? It’s so synchronous that you should post this today, as I just returned from a workshop, part of a yearly Celtic music festival in my town, and the class stressed the importance of we fiddlers being able to sing and listen to the singers of the songs. I am glad you give voice to your spirit and free yourself through song. This was so well-written too.

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    • Thank you so much. I set out to write something about my dog living in the ever present now but this is what came out instead. So it goes. Thanks for your kind words

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  2. viewfromthebeachchair

    What continues to amaze me is that all songs are unique! #thatsatsesh

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  3. Sounding like so many but still unique! Thanks

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  4. I wouldn’t be so crass to call what I do singing. More the painful cries of a wee in labour!
    #thesatsesh

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  5. #thesatsesh ooooh Enda, so please you found our linky. Your talent is raw, poetic and has literally made me smile from ear to ear. What a wonderful reflection of such a simplistic task. I’m a full time committed car singer songwriter and my family don’t appreciate my voice or interpretation / wrecking of classic hits.

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    • Definitely be back if people say such nice things!!! My kids think very poorly of my actual singing too … mind you, with good reason😉😕😀

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